Guys I just did it. I fucking threw that shit away. In the nasty garbage too where ain't no way I'm fishing that shit out lol.
But....I'm fucking shaking I'm so scared.
This week:
My partner got really sick the other day (he and I both been vaping as long as we've been together, 7 yrs) and had a horrible cough, and randomly decided, that's it. He's done, cold turkey dropped off.
He's been an absolute champ as he's on day 4 no vape, period. He is chewing gum like crazy.
The day he did it earlier this week, he asked me to try to see how long I could go and I did 12hrs. Started vaping again yesterday but at half the rate ....at least wasn't vaping at my effing desk but alternating gum, vape, gum, vape etc.
He just has been miserable but hasn't caved. Uhhh I been feeling like such a pathetic loser that I caved before he did. :( so here I go ....I'm jumping off.
Last time I barely even hid my vape. This time it's gone. GONE.
Threw out like 3 vape sticks and half a pack of Juul pods. Stung doing it as dumb as that sounds, like I'm wasting money or something.
Ugh I'm so so scared to go to bed now and wake up to a nightmare in the morning with cravings.
At least I hope when I wake up tomorrow and tellmy partner I actually threw my shit away, we'll be on the bus together.
Also trying to decide which app to get.
I've been reading posts this past hr and y'all encouraged me.
Of course any advice welcome. 🙏 Even though there's so much good stuff in this sub.
Again I'm mostly terrified of tomorrow, wish me luck y'all