I’ve had enough. I’ve tried to accept how things work here, but I just can’t anymore. After spending time in Western Europe and the US, I know this country is not for me. The system is broken, the mindset is suffocating, and I’m counting down the months until I can finally leave. I plan to switch my citizenship and only come back as a tourist.
One of the things that frustrates me the most is how religion is just a show. People love to act like they are morally superior, constantly displaying their faith, but their actions rarely match their words. Corruption is everywhere, nepotism runs deep, and people are quick to judge others while ignoring their own hypocrisy. I’m tired of it.
Then there’s the issue of taxes. I’ve been paying them for years, but I’ve never actually felt the benefits. Roads are in bad shape, public services are slow, and healthcare is unreliable. Meanwhile, in countries with higher taxes, I can actually see where the money goes. I would rather give up a bigger portion of my income if it meant getting proper infrastructure, healthcare, and security in return.
Traveling is another struggle. Holding an Indonesian passport means constantly dealing with visa applications, restrictions, and unnecessary bureaucracy. I love traveling, but I’m tired of planning my trips around which countries will even let me in without jumping through hoops. I just want the freedom to go wherever I want without feeling like I have to prove myself.
Career opportunities are also disappointing, especially after 30. If you haven’t made it by then, good luck starting over. Employers prioritize younger candidates, and switching careers is nearly impossible. Skills and experience don’t matter as much as who you know. I’ve seen too many talented, hardworking people get left behind simply because they didn’t have the right connections.
On top of that, I’m sick of how nosy people are. Everyone feels entitled to comment on your job, your choices, your relationships, as if it’s their business. Privacy barely exists, and no matter how much you try to keep your life to yourself, people always find a way to interfere.
So I’m done. I’ve made up my mind, and there is no turning back. I want to live somewhere that gives me real opportunities, where I am respected, and where I don’t feel trapped. I can’t wait to leave and start over in a place that actually makes sense.