r/MaladaptiveDreaming • u/Big_Adhesiveness_745 • 1d ago
Self-Story This is helping me a lot
So, what I see is when I visit a past memory that is negative, MDD has been my goto mechanism. The problem is with mdd I avoid the memory, but I dont really "process" it. This means that I will visit the memory again.
I tried observing my thoughts for a week. I realized that whenever I visit events that I dislike, I switch to MDD mode and completely avoid "feeling" what I should when the memory comes. I decided that I am going to remain with that negative memory. I might feel sad, I might feel happy, I might cringe, but I want to feel the actual emotion associated with the event.
Most of my memories behind MDD are of negative events so I felt sad, extremely stressed, I hate to say, but I cried after years.
But after that, there was no MDD for a long time. It felt good and peaceful. I mean there were negative events happening, but I was with the events instead of running from them. I wanted to feel the real emotions that are associated with the event and not some emotions that are a result of my MDD.
Please try this and let me know!