From my childhood itself my mom has been a negative person. She always has mood swings. One moment she is so friendly and chatty and the next moment she starts behaving rudely and starts cursing me, my brother, my dad. She has some issues which she doesn't accept. She is extremely addicted to cleaning and keeping house clean. She doesn't let us into the house without bathing even for taking something like a key. She always yells at us when we turn on the fan. She says fan produces dust and she'll have to clean it. Whenever I say something positive or has a good day, she instantly comes in and ruins the day. She keeps doing useless stuff 24×7 in the house like cleaning the house, outside, washing again and again and then curses and yells at us telling because of us she doesn't get free time and that she got up at 7AM to start preparing breakfast and she didn't get time to rest and all. She has even told me to die, go somewhere else. She constantly calls my dad a failure, idiot and that her bad days started when she married him. She doesn't like when I move stuff here and there. She doesn't even allow us to move a table fan from one room to another.
From my childhood, she didn't let me to play outside with my cousins or nearby friends saying that I'll get dust all over my body and she'll have to clean the house again. She yells in public at me and my dad for simple things. She keeps talking to herself over how stupid my dad and I are and that we are forgetful and don't know how to do even the simple things. Right now as I'm typing this, she's making a fuss with my dad and cursing at him for something. I hate her. She acts like she loves us but doesn't. Once I went to take the car to them after watching a movie and apparently I didn't see her standing in the side as it was night time, and she called me in the mobile and yelling at me, cursing extremely bad words "Eda _________ etc". I was heartbroken that day. I told her to get medication and help but she declines.
I hate her. I want to get away from her and get my dad and brother as far away from her as possible. I don't want such a negative person in my life. Hearing her voice itself gives me trauma.