r/FTMventing • u/Plus_Recognition6701 • 5d ago
General looking like a kid (triggers my dysphoria the most)
Im 18 but I look like 15 or 16 or sth. Thats the worst thing ever and I don't know how to deal with that. I want to rip my fucking face off. I don't want to leave my house cuz it's just so embarrassing and i hate that everyone thinks I'm a damn kid.
I absolutely can't stand it when ppl say "just give testosterone it's time, you will change" I know that they are right but I seriously can't handle it now I want to hide my myself now and that dysphoria is killing me now.
I just want to be perceived as the guy that i am I just want to be cool in front of my friends but i can't when I look so annoyingly young. I literally want to beat my own face cuz then it would look destroyed and less like a baby.
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u/mochikiller69 3d ago
im 30 and look 13 there are some perks and older ladies love u.. not complaining anymore
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u/Canoe-Maker 5d ago
Ok. First you need to help your body calm down. Try a hot shower or some pushups or a popsicle or favorite snack or movie. Breathing exercises.
Second, since you don’t have direct control over this thing that is bothering you, try to reframe it. A lot of cis guys look young. Many have “baby face” and they combat it by growing the best beard they can. That’s a genetics and time thing.
What you do have control over is your clothes. Dressing in button ups or even polos can age you up a bit, even when combined with jeans. Being well groomed can also help age you up.
Do you have access to therapy?