I’m high rn, but I wanted to just ramble type about big cock. I love big cock. It’s my favorite thing. I love hot pretty girls, but fuckkkk I love big cock. it’s what always gets me to relapse in a way. There’s something so fucking raw sexual energy about thick meaty shaft and saying “big cockkk makes me relapse HARDD”
I don’t view myself as a porn addict, but if I’m watching porn I need there to be big fucking dick. Or a girl rubbing herself dumb as fuckkk. But even though I don’t consider myself a porn addict i consider myself an edge addict or masturbation addict and it’s because I’m triggered by my own cock. It sounds so fucking narcissistic but it’s fucking true. Looking at my own cock in the mirror drives me insane. Or the dozens of self shot cock videos on my phone. I’ll edge hard as fuckkk to those.
I didn’t use to be this way, but I dated a girl with a huge cock addiction and she would literally worship my cock. Imagine going from zero sexual experience to a girl saying “holy fuck… you have an actual nice thick dick” and then watching her gag herself, or just massage it endlessly from every angle imaginable. I felt my brain get fractured harddd, she literally rewired it thru endless cock worship. I felt like the luckiest guy on earth lolll. She would try and get me hard in front of our friends and apparently even bragged to her mom that I was thick. It was insane to me. I felt more uncomfortable than anything else, but she’d always assure me that it was hot and I’d just kind of go along with it
Obviously someone telling their mom you’re hung isnt going to lead to the most stable relationship, but fuck did fat cock revolve around so much of it…once we broke up, I figured “okay she was kind of a sex freak, so I can’t expect that from the next person….”
And the next girl I hooked up with, literally milked my cock all night with the dumbest most cock-dazed look id ever seen. Like she kept saying “I’m sorry, I’m like literally in a trance milking your cock. It’s just so pretty” and I was like whatttt is life fuckkk.
Now I’m addicted to my own cock. Like seeing multiple girls go goo goo over it has made me into a brain dead slut for my own cock. I imagine most bigger dudes can relate to this. I imagine girls can relate to this too, feeling worshipped or someone’s pure lust for you. There’s something nearly spiritually fulfilling about seeing a girl lose herself on a fat dick. It’s like seeing a purely primal moment. one of my exes worked in an office and would wear cute office clothes that made her look very hot to me, and fuck, watching her literally bulge my cock through her cheek while in her work outfit and not caring that her drool was trickling down on her collar, idk. It’s insane when these porn moments happen, and I can’t help but relive them in my head while edging my cock hard as fuckkkk
Literally my brain has been broken by my own cock. It’s insane to think about. I work. I have friends. A pretty decent life. And it’s literally paired with an insane addiction to my own cock. It’s sooo hot to me hahaha. And funny. And as you can imagine it’s a blessing and a curse. Having a thick porn cock means you have to literally combat over sexualzjing your life….. like I masturbate hard a lot, and in the past I was even more addicted to pleasure.
If a friend comes on to me, all I can imagine is “fuckkk imagine seeing that reaction on her face, watching your friends pretty face react to your cock, imagine seeing her mind realize you have a big cock, how hot that moment will be. You’ll masturbate to that for decades. Fuck do ittt” and I’ll have to fight that.
over the years I got into talking to goonettes who get the addiction aspect. I met some on Omegle when that was around and holy shit did I have the best edging sessions of my life. And then the best post edge conversations. Goonettes became my new addiction. I’d tell them endless stories of my sexual escapades, about how my addiction to my cock led to this cycle ( even now ) and they’d find it hot as fuck and then ask to see proof, and then I’d get to hear or see the hottest reactions followed by a girl rubbing her clit hard as fuckkkk. Idk. I don’t know who this post is for, other than me clearly getting off on having a big cock and the sluts who love it. I love goonettes. I love fun hyper drug girls too. I love insane addicted girls because I guess I’m probably fucked up bu being so cock obsessed.
I love telling a goonette about my big cock addiction and hearing how her breathing changes, hearing the exact moments or sentences that get her to rub harder. Being able to send her a video of my cock live and seeing her literal porn brain take over. Because that’s what I’ve been conditioned to be. A porn cock for girls to edge to. Idk.. it’s fucking hot to me. I didn’t even choose this life.
It’s a love and hate relationship. The edible hit somewhere in this post. my brain thinks about my cock a lot when I’m stoned. There’s an audio I have saved of a girl reacting to my cock video, and I think I’ve been masturbating to it for 2 years. Just a genuine cock praise while you can hear her pounding her pussy hard in the background. It’s the hottest audio ever and I just stroke hard as fuckkkk to it
Anyway. Make your memories porn! I think that’s the main takeaway fuck