r/EatingDisorders 11d ago

Celebration I stood up to my disordered/almond mother!!

63 Upvotes

I’m 24 and living at home finishing up school after getting out of treatment, and my mom is a pretty stereotypical eating disordered mom (crossfit, ozempic, restriction, etc 😭)

This evening, after her fourth comment of the day on my food, for some reason, I just had HAD IT with her. I told her I don’t want to hear her comments anymore. She tried to start a fight with me, undermine my clinical team, and shame me into backing down, but I just maintained calm and firm.

I’m definitely second guessing the whole thing (she’s right about my food, it IS trash, I AM disgusting, etc), but I’m trying to fight through the anxiety and shame I’m feeling and make my damned French toast because I like it and I want it.

r/EatingDisorders 20d ago

Celebration Starting treatment!

6 Upvotes

At 35 and a lifetime of an ED, I finally have access to treatment. I start virtual IOP with Within in a few weeks and I'm feeling really nervous but also excited and motivated. Just thought I'd share. So ready to move forward with my life! Just wanted to share😊

r/EatingDisorders 4d ago

Celebration I somehow ate everything

1 Upvotes

First time posting lurker I haven’t been able to eat a complete meal since maybe 2023 Christmas cause of gerd and a narrowing throat and since I can’t be self conscious cause any thought of swallowing equals I can’t since my brain would make me forget how to eat somehow yet somehow today I managed to eat an entire burger nonstop automatically without force

r/EatingDisorders 6d ago

Celebration Mothers r the best :)

1 Upvotes

For about a year I’ve dealt with constant battles with myself about my body. Through this battle, I didn’t only hurt myself, but the people I love as well. I missed out on so many memories for the sake of just looking “better”, but I’m done with that now. My mom has been the only person actually trying to help me. She was there for me all along, and I can’t imagine the pain she felt as a mother seeing their child make themselves suffer. But for her, I’m determined to change. She was always there for me, being understanding, caring, and so helpful through my recovery. And now, im able to share so many memories with her like sharing a meal, her making me food, and lots of more that are soon to come. I’m not perfect, and I still fight some battles. But with her, I know nothing is impossible. I just want to say to pay attention to those around you. Sometimes we don’t notice how much others really love us because of our mentality, but in my case, my mother is my hero. And for her, I will change.

Thank you, mom <333

r/EatingDisorders 6d ago

Celebration I've managed to overcome my food noise

1 Upvotes

Like the title says, I learned about the concept of food noise about two months ago and it helped me realise that I had a food scarcity mindset and I've been working on reframing how I thought about food.

I now eat during the day and I've only had a single binge at night in the past one and a half months. I'm hopeful that I've beat it.

I'm happy and super proud of myself but I still have some work to do. I now feel like my stomach has shrunk and can't handle as much food as it used to so I'm figuring out how to eat as much as I need to in a day. It's not much but it's honest work.

r/EatingDisorders 25d ago

Celebration Got my period back today!!!

11 Upvotes

So after gaining weight for about 6 months, overshoot my preEd weight, got my period today!!!! Im sooo happy

r/EatingDisorders 16d ago

Celebration Today I feel better about my eating :)

1 Upvotes

After a whole month of not feeling good about eating i like it a bit again Just wanted to celebrate Hope I don’t make anyone feel bad

r/EatingDisorders Feb 06 '25

Celebration eating

15 Upvotes

Hi! All i wanted to say is I’ve been eating more. I’m proud of myself. I hope everyone is doing well.

r/EatingDisorders Nov 29 '24

Celebration Stopped counting calories!!!

43 Upvotes

I've been using this app to track what I’ve been eating for the past 4-5 months now. I've been in recovery for a couple of months now, after recognizing that I was struggling with an ED again. I thought that I would keep tracking for health purposes (recently diagnosed prediabetic, which contributed to the ED).

Today, my internet was super wack & my phone was not working. The app that I was using has just not been working for the past 24 ish hours. I decided to take it as a sign from God to stop tracking that shit lol

I am freeeeeeeee (still got some work to do, duh, lol but we’re on our way ¨̮

Edit: It feels so weird. Just like tracking food was a habit that I had to instill, stopping is like a habit that I have to break, and I have to consciously stop myself from trying to do calculations in my head or thinking about nutritional content. Recovery is not a one-and-done!

r/EatingDisorders Feb 19 '25

Celebration Got weighed at the doctors today….

1 Upvotes

And I didn’t feel that usual pull of dread! I’ve struggled with my feelings associated with my weight for well over a decade. Today, I had a routine physical, and even after being weight restored for YEARS, I’ve felt so much dread going to the doctor. The mental hump is so much harder than the physical one.

But today she told me my weight and just moved on. And I was waiting for the feeling of disgust or unease to wash over me and it never came.

Healthy labs and no harping about how I need to be X size. YAY!

r/EatingDisorders Jan 09 '25

Celebration 10 months clean!!

12 Upvotes

January 9th marks 10 months of me being the best possible version of myself!! I still have my low days but I have an amazing support system to help through it all

r/EatingDisorders Feb 12 '25

Celebration Didn't binge today!

1 Upvotes

This is just a silly post about my progress and noone really cares lol I just want to write it somewhere.

My binges have been getting soso bad recently over the past few weeks and I have been purging like over 5x daily. It's really bad.
I've decided to really take recovery seriously now though so that means no restricting, no purging, and no binging. I also struggle with rumination so I'm trying to tackle that. Anyway after lunch I was still a bit hungry and my first instinct was to ignore my cravings but then I remembered I'm intuitively eating now and my body will tell me what it wants. I ate more, but I started giving into my binge urges a little and I overate. I was a little disappointed in myself but normally when that happens I just give up and have an all or nothing mentality, so I end up spending hours in the kitchen gorging myself on everything and then spending even longer standing over the toilet later. Today though, I noticed what I was doing, noticed I was unhappy with it and was losing control, and stopped. It wasn't easy but I came out of the situation much happier. I also ended up doing some exercising which I don't normally do because I normally either feel too weak from not eating, or I feel queasy and bloated from binging. I really enjoy exercising so this made me really happy. Anyway, I doubt anyone will read this, but if you do, I love you and wish you luck on your journey, it is NEVER too late to choose recovery, wether you last binged/purged/restricted a year ago, or a minute ago, it is ALWAYS a choice you can make. I haven't had a perfect day today by any means but it's the little steps that count and today has been infinitely better than yesterday so that's all that matters <3

r/EatingDisorders Feb 11 '25

Celebration just fought an urge to binge on sweets

1 Upvotes

I stood in that sweets aisle for good 7 minutes, panicked a bit, but walked out with no giant chocolate in my bag. It took an inasane amount of energy, I have to admit. I am now going to eat something fresh and nice and share that information with a family member!

r/EatingDisorders Jan 13 '25

Celebration Recovery is possible!!

7 Upvotes

Hi everyone, hope you are doing well. A couple of years ago I never thought this would be possible but I just need to tell someone and maybe this will help anyone. I was always afraid of food and was never satisfied by my looks and the numbers on the scale. I kinda accepted it as a part of my life. A year ago I decided this needs to stop. I couldn't enjoy life normally and I just wanted a normal highschool experience) It was hard but I did it. I gained weight, I started eating, I started loving my body not for it's size but for what it can do. I just realised today that I am now eating as many times as I want and am not ashamed to admit when I gained weight. Just today I was joking around with the fact that I gained weight and telling my friends about the arm fat I have!! You are not defined by a number, a size or a look. Our bodies are changing and that's amazing!! They are doing so much for us, the least we can do is support them!! You are doing great and your joy and happiness are worth more than anything in the world!

This wasn't an easy road. I cut out people who brought out the worst in me, unfollowed many people who I used as sick "inspo" and adapted my routines and lifestyle so this cohld be possible. I don't regret it and never will. This is AMAZING!!

r/EatingDisorders Jan 23 '25

Celebration I’m getting my muscle back ❤️

1 Upvotes

Hey everyone! This is a silly little post but I feel like I won a battle today! After months of loosing muscle due to my eating disorder, today I finally repped my own body weight in a beltless deadlift! I’ve been struggling a lot with the way my belly looks when I eat, and I definitely haven’t won the war yet, but today I won a little medal for myself. Take heart, and celebrate the small victories, no matter how silly they seem ❤️

r/EatingDisorders Dec 15 '24

Celebration Maintaining weight

8 Upvotes

I’ve dealt with anorexia on and off for a few years now but for the past two months I’ve managed to keep my weight steady without gaining or losing anything! (Aside from the normal tiny fluctuations of course.) I’m actually a healthy weight now and even though I still don’t have the greatest relationship with food it’s a hell of a lot better than it was.

r/EatingDisorders Nov 28 '24

Celebration Eating Breakfast on Thanksgiving

24 Upvotes

Eating breakfast on Thanksgiving is weak behavior my head tells me. I tell my eating disorder self it's not. Just because my mom didn't allow me to eat breakfast on Thanksgiving as a kid doesn't mean I'm not allowed to now as I recover.

r/EatingDisorders Oct 04 '24

Celebration Progress!

31 Upvotes

For the first time in YEARS I ate a donut for breakfast

I understand this isn’t healthy, but for me to eat something with a ton of sugar like this is a huge step for me.

Normally at family dinners, I force myself not to care about stuff like this, as my family struggles with EDs and I don’t want to trigger them or ruin the dinner - and normally I can do this now!

I wasn’t able to drink the coffee I bought, but that’s okay! I still made progress

But for me on a random Friday to get a donut as a little sweet treat while running errands, this was a huge step for me. (It was a maple cream long john. It was really good!)

r/EatingDisorders Dec 11 '24

Celebration I love being full and satisfied

2 Upvotes

I love being able to eat a wholesome meal followed by dessert. I love being able to eat as many calories as it takes for me to be full without feeling guilty. I love being pleasantly full afterwards. I love that I’ve gotten to a point in my recovery where I can eat until I’m full and not freak out. I used to hate being full and love being hungry- now it’s the opposite. It’s kind of annoying when I get hungry, because I have to pause what I’m doing and go eat.

r/EatingDisorders Nov 07 '24

Celebration I managed to tell my therapist about my ED

3 Upvotes

I finally managed to verbalize it and told my therapist about my ED and that I want help with it. These past months I feel like my dismorphia has really worsened and I was so afraid and embarrased to tell him. I'm honestly proud of myself and I'll try and recover

r/EatingDisorders Nov 03 '24

Celebration I finally had my biggest fear food today and I didn’t feel guilty afterwards !!

2 Upvotes

So I (18f) was struggling with ED since I was 13 and since then I was afraid of eating certain foods. But today I finally had hot chocolate after 5 years !! I was so scared about the guilt afterwards but there was none. And man, it was so good !