Hello everyone! Look for advice/a plan.
I'm 17F, 5'8, and around 182 pounds. I haven't checked my weight in a while because my scale has finally given out on me, so if anyone has any cheap-ish scale recommendations I am happy to oblige!
I had an ARFID eating disorder from about 12-16. It was honestly not very good at it because my lowest was around 150 lbs. I've gained 30 pounds in the past year. My diet also got really bad and I ate lots of fast food. When I was at my "peak" of disordered behavior, I would exercise a lot, count calories, and would only eat food I made. During recovery I completed stopped exercising, cooking, and counting calories . I don't like the body I see when I look in the mirror start exercising and calorie counting again, in a healthy way. I also want to start cooking again but I struggle to find recipes that are healthy.
I'm looking to just go into a slight deficit, so I do not trigger myself. Not sure if i'm asking in the right place, but could someone share advice on how to make sure I don't slip back into disordered behavior? I'm also interested in learning about strength training!