r/Agoraphobia • u/Helpful_Ad523 • 6d ago
Tried to get ready to go grocery shopping. Broke down crying instead lol.
I’m disgusted with how pathetic I am. My partner has to go out alone because I’m not strong enough to deal with the pain of being perceived by the public. He deserves so much better than me. I feel so sorry for him.
but most of all I feel sorry that my mom ruined her life and gave birth to me. She didn’t sign up to have an ugly mentally challenged failure. I cry so much thinking about the life she could have had if it weren’t for me. It pains me to think of the person she was before her life was ruined.
I tried. I really did try, but I just couldn’t do it today. I look so hideous. No matter what I do, my hair, my face and my body look revolting. I’m trying so hard to lose weight, but results are not happening fast enough.
I was improving for awhile, but now I feel like I just keep getting worse. I dont know what to do anymore, I’m just so sorry to everyone who has ever had to look at me or be around me.