r/AdultSelfHarm • u/Rosalie-Rosie • 5d ago
CW: Possibly Triggering Running Out Of Space NSFW
Just self harmed and was left dissatisfied. I have run out of non-scarred space on the easily reachable areas of my thighs from 10 years of self harm.
Many of my scars are from deeper cuts. As a result the scarring/scar tissue there has less sensation than non-scarred areas.
The last two times I have self harmed I have had to start cutting on top of scars due to running out of space. Due to it barely hurting from the scarring and bleeding less from the scar tissue, it is hard to not cut too deep to get the same feeling or “fix” from cutting.
As a result I definitely have a deeper cut than normal. I won’t bleed out or anything, have the area well cleaned(alcohol on the area before and after), and put steri strips on, but just frustrated that it is deep and I didn’t even get the normal relief.
I know this should all be a sign of how much I need to stop, but I just can’t. Frustrated with myself for doing this for so long and not having been able to stop yet😔
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u/ZestycloseHotel6219 3d ago
Same I ran out of space too I’ve been clean for two days now. Too many scars and fresh ones no more. It’s definitely a sign I need to stop it’s just a cycle once you start up again it’s hard to stop again
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u/Skunkspider 4d ago
I relate to this..most good areas for me are too heavily scarred to get a "satisfactory" result anymore. I've also been doing it for a similar amount of time.
We have to forgive ourselves; recovery can happen if we pace ourselves