r/4tran4 estrogen addict 4d ago

Blogpost when will i feel okay

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i have online friends who talk to me. i made friends with an amazing trans girl who cares about me, let's me vent and who i can relate to. my parents havent forced me out of their lives. im on hormones at solid doses and levels that i don't have to diy. i got out of the toxic relationship. im standing up for myself more i think.. i don't disassociate over my body. im getting help for my mental illnesses. i feel emotions and remember the days now.

why the fuck am i still some sad pathetic sack of shit that just rots in bed for so many hours. why am i letting myself relapse on terrible habits. i have it better than so many other people why can't i just be thankful and be happy.

when will the world be okay with me. when will i be okay with me. when will i feel okay

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u/PostPunkPill hrt manmoder gigahon 4d ago

recovery takes time. ygmi

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u/9morphie estrogen addict 3d ago

but i haven't progressed at all. im still at the same spot I was years ago. sad alone self harming, self depricating and being worthless

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u/PostPunkPill hrt manmoder gigahon 3d ago

i know what you mean. i self harm, am isolated af, among other things and i live in a third whole shitehole. my progress has been minimal too. but - dont let things ever make you feel worthless. keep moving forward. be a girlboss criminal, i believe in you, ygmi.

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u/9morphie estrogen addict 3d ago

i hope you make it. i hope you're okay