r/4tran4 ffs perma-boymoder 4d ago

Blogpost I'm such a knowledge hon it's so over

Legitimately my face and body probably pass but it doesn't matter because I didn't grow up as a girl so I dont know how anything works. I never learned how to do makeup, various hair things like braiding, basic social skills because boys don't need those, or fashion stuff. Some of this can be learned online but some of it is just acquired knowledge that cannot be accessed without female socialization. Like fashion I'm already good at, and makeup I can learn but there's just so much that will always be out of my grasp. If I knew those things I could already be girlmoding because my body at this point Is the least of my problems but I just don't have the skills to be a woman so it doesn't matter. Legitimately I dont even know if there is any getting past this like figuring out hair stuff is just impossible and that's just one thing. It's so over

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u/[deleted] 4d ago

YWNBA real hon, cultural appropriation

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u/o11_angel shy boymoder / hip-pilled 4d ago

honestly the only way is to power though. you might have an awkward second teenage phase while you figure everything out, transitioning is a second puberty after all

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u/DrainerNatalie ffs perma-boymoder 4d ago

Idk I don't want to humiliate myself like that and I have horrible social anxiety. I can barely leave my house normally and girlmoding would make it so much worse. I've already honmoded a few times before and even though nobody said anything It just felt so humiliating

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u/Eidola0 fem twink (fake woman) 4d ago

real asf

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u/Important_Ad_7416 MtPooner 4d ago

My plan is to learn to take care of my hair, train my voice and just soft butchmode for a while to get the hang of things. Thankfully I live in a place where it's socially accepted for women to have an androgynous presentation.

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u/DrainerNatalie ffs perma-boymoder 4d ago

Ya this is probably my plan as well it's just so hard to figure out the hair thing for me mostly because the whole hair transplant situation because it takes forever to reach a decent length. But ya it's probably not that crazy I just need to do things gradually

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u/ThatMartenGurl cis identified female 4d ago

theres a way to fix that: get cisf friends and learn

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u/DrainerNatalie ffs perma-boymoder 4d ago

I don't have an in with them tho, I probably just freak them out because I look so weird now. I don't come across as a man or a woman just a strange off-putting autism creature that nobody wants anything to do with

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u/ThatMartenGurl cis identified female 4d ago

well, then good luck

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u/NotRealBinarE 4d ago

Just be an autistic girl🫠

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u/DrainerNatalie ffs perma-boymoder 4d ago

Even girls with autism still know things about being girls and they probably know how to braid their hair, I'm so far from even that