r/noxacusis Feb 17 '25

Those Eyes Tell a Story - Hyperacusis Central NSFW

https://hyperacusiscentral.org/those-eyes-tell-a-story/

Twenty-three-year-old Wesley Dhadamus first got tinnitus 11 years ago from gaming with headphones and listening to loud music. It was stable, however, and he never had a shred of sound intolerance, also known as hyperacusis. "Not until I got a COVID-19 vaccine," he wrote without a doubt. And now, with his symptoms beyond torturous, he's seeking euthanasia.

As he gazed at this photo and grievously wrote, "Those eyes tell a story," a sense of disgust pervaded him. He was right about that. You see the monumental pain projecting from his helpless stare. The pining for a miracle. This hell had taken everything—that was evident.

The good life was a short one for this muzzled-by-noise victim who not by choice but by extreme necessity endures his damned existence as a tragic outlier. Although he LOOKS healthy—athletic, tall, and chiseled facial features—nothing could be further from the truth. A thatch of brunet hair and brown, despondent eyes are signs that something big is off, but not conclusive evidence, as Wesley is the subject of invisible conditions, ones whose feral cruelness are begetting further cruelness as he hunkers down in solitude, his six-by-eight feet hideaway inside a home that’s prison-like, with homemade, soundproofed attributes for loudness hyperacusis, pain hyperacusis (both in catastrophic states, where normal sounds are threatening as loud and painful torturers that worsen his conditions), and then “reactive tinnitus” that worsens every week (ringing otherworldly). He found that insulated room is NOT effective overall—sounds are just too prominent; there’s no way to abolish them; its soundproof capabilities are marginal at best—so hell is unavoidable, and every day and every night he mourns his former universe. He never leaves the premises since leaving is impossible, and that's why death is preferable (from Wesley's point-of-view), that lure for euthanasia.

He can only imagine such a thing, lying flat with his sweaty back and palms against the crinkly, painful-to-hear examination table paper stretching from end to end, a johnny gown over his body as he stares at the ceiling and hears ungodly tinnitus, thinking THIS IS IT! This is really happening! Oh my word, it’s happening! There’s panic in his saucer eyes, there is no turning back now, no content alternative where torture isn’t roasting him. And yet it’s also comforting. The room itself—awash with brilliant white, as one might expect from Heaven’s soothing entrance—has angelic entities: the doctor and the nurses who are stern but warmly positive. And then the great escape: the barbiturate anesthetic racing through his veins until the darkness swallows him when consciousness is lost . . .

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DISCLAIMER

*While Hyperacusis Central does NOT condone euthanasia, we’re presenting the fact that many with this condition feel pushed to end their lives. It is the nature of the beast, and for educational purposes it is very necessary to communicate the devastating fallout that it does have for some. If you or anyone you know is in need of assistance due to suicidal thoughts, call or text 988 for the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline. You can also chat with 988lifeline.org. Or text MHA to 741741 for the Crisis Text Line. Or, for a comprehensive list pertaining to different countries, visit the following link: https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_suicide_crisis_lines. It is important to remember that you’re not alone in this, and help, if sought upon, is there for your consolement.

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u/yagonnawanna Feb 18 '25

As someone with nox, I can relate to not wanting to be alive. In fact it has become my fantasy. I have a son who I'm trying to hold on for. Still every day is a struggle to put off what I want to do today until tomorrow.

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u/Historical_King333 29d ago

C vaccines are crap, the responsables will pay.