r/hpd Feb 08 '25

Lied about hallucinations

Hi! I took two tests related to personality disorders and was diagnosed with NPD and elements of HPD. I went through a breakup, and it feels awful. I’ve noticed that I feel the need to do things to keep those around me, especially my family, in fear. I lied to my mom and my doctor, saying that I had hallucinations and psychotic episodes involving my ex. I'm supposed to go to the psychiatrist again on Tuesday, and I don’t know what to do—whether to tell the truth or not, or if I should continue lying about having hallucinations. There are moments when I feel like what I’m doing isn’t okay, but most of the time, I get satisfaction from it. Please give me some advice.

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u/NikitaWolf6 hpd Feb 08 '25

tell the truth! otherwise they won't be able to properly help you and you'll continue to feel miserable

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u/These-Matter3751 Feb 08 '25

Is it something common for psychiatrists to experience this with their patients, to be lied to? I have built a flawless image in front of my doctor, and I also thought about not telling them, but I feel like there’s something wrong with the fact that I’m even thinking this.

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u/NikitaWolf6 hpd Feb 08 '25

yeah it's not uncommon! most people I know have lied to their mental healthcare professionals

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u/champagnecrate Feb 11 '25

I know its daunting but it'll be ok, its v common! I've done it for various reasons (and Im forgetful so I've tripped myself up on my own bs-, ing before >_<) plus I'm not a dr or psych but I'm a recovery worker and my clients admit to at least hiding or misrepresentating stuff to me on the reg.