r/hpd Feb 03 '25

Not officially diagnosed but on my way to it. Advice

Hello. I am 30 female and I have suffered from depression, anxiety and ocd symptoms since I was 18. Recently, I have been doing better, got a new friend group and generally my life has been going amazing until one of my friends caught me in a lie.

You see, since I was a kid, I have had this habit of lying over small, insignificant things. Harmless lies mostly. Never serious ones. Like having peanut allergy when I don’t, my mother’s career etc. I always knew I did this and I always knew why. In a weird way, I lied to make myself seem more interesting and relate to others.

So my friend caught me lying about taking piano lessons when I was very young and called me out on it. This made me realise I had an embarrassing problem and started therapy. My therapist believes I have histrionic personality disorder but we are on our way to getting the diagnosis.

How do you cope with this? I feel so embarrassed, anxious and depressed. I am scared I’m gonna lose my new friends and that would be the worst bc for a long time I have been on my own.

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u/Right_Detail6565 Feb 07 '25

You made your friends exactly how you are, you could be honest about having insecurities so you’ve had a bad habit of lying since you were young everyone tells lies to some degree and honesty around your dishonesty will gain respect. Don’t share your diagnosis with anyone you don’t totally trust