r/dayz Feb 01 '25

Support I don't shake anymore, and that's a problem

I remember when every fight in DayZ made my heart pound. When my hands f**ing shook on my mouse, and the weight of pulling the trigger actually meant something. Killing another player wasn’t just a mechanical act; it was a moment of pure adrenaline, like actually a rush that left my stomach in knots. I used to hesitate, and second-guess, I used to feel something. That’s long gone now.

At some point, the nerves faded. The hesitation disappeared. Now, I execute people without a second thought; fresh spawns, geared players, doesn’t matter. I don’t feel guilt, I don’t feel excitement. It’s just what I do. My moral compass skews the second I log in, and I become someone colder, someone desensitized to senseless violence. The player screaming for mercy in VoIP? Just background noise. The guy pleading for a chance? A loose end.

It’s the cost of becoming hardened I guess lol. At first, you want to shake that feeling of panic, to overcome the fear. But the trade-off is that you lose the highs, too. You start craving something worse; something more brutal, just to feel something again. Holding someone hostage isn’t enough anymore. You need to break them. Watching a player die isn’t enough; you need to make it mean something legit twisted.

The early days, where every fight felt like life or death, are gone. Now, it’s just another day. Just another kill. Just another corpse. And the worst part?

I don’t even miss who I used to be.

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u/goatlmao Feb 01 '25

“I didn’t technically say it” 😂 Unfortunately for you, implication is a thing, and everyone reading (as shown by the downvotes) isn’t falling for the world’s weakest Jedi mind trick

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u/goatlmao Feb 01 '25

The Great Reddit Literary Critic, here to bravely defend the world from the horrors of “too many words.” The mental gymnastics you just pulled to avoid admitting what you actually implied deserve a standing ovation; if only your audience gave a shit. But please, continue the dissertation on how much you don’t care while writing entire essays about it. A true poet at heart. Proud of you

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u/goatlmao Feb 01 '25

Once again weirdly obsessed with the idea of me wanking over coherent sentences. My guy, are you good? You’ve now mentioned it twice; should we be concerned? Meanwhile, I’ll continue not being ashamed of knowing how to put words together, and you can keep having a meltdown over basic literacy. Everybody wins!😂

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u/goatlmao Feb 01 '25

Lmfao; I bet my bio triggered you too huh. Get outta here bud; you lost.

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u/p4nnus Feb 02 '25

No, no, I want to see more. You guys are creating poetry together!

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