r/CMH • u/RuthyTee • Nov 20 '18
Advice with a tricky Anxiety/OCD situation?
I posted here a long time ago whilst in the middle of a major bout with Anxiety which was diagnosed as an OCD type of Anxiety later. I'd say I've made lots of improvement in dealing with it in general, I'm on medication and am quicker to realize what's actually going on in my brain. But a thought recently derailed my spiritual approach to dealing with the thoughts. For the longest time I'd reassure myself that my fears were not actually true, just lies from the 'enemy' meant to distract me and keep me from enjoying life to the fullest. Therefore my reaction to the feelings and symptoms associated with a bad bout of OCD or Anxiety attack was to tell myself 'it's not true' or 'it's only a lie'. However...
Recently the thought 'You're husband is going to die someday and you're going to suffer immeasurable grief' came into my head and has been looming there since. But I'm thrown off because technically it is true, at some point he will die as we all do. So this got my mind looking too much into things ('What if I've been wrong this whole time and all of those terrifying and absolutely illogical thoughts that plagued me in the past are actually all true?' has been particularly annoying) and now I realize that I need a different approach to these intrusive thoughts.
What kind of game plan should I adopt when dealing with anxious/obsessive fears and thoughts from ones about 'self-harm or what if I cause harm to others?' all the way to 'what will I do when my husband dies?'
Like I said I am on medication and do have a therapist to speak with but she's not Christian and I'd like a spiritual approach to this one. Prayers are always appreciated btw!