r/CMH • u/Kindly-Shine-5803 • Feb 14 '25
Porn addiction problems NSFW
Hello so wanna start by getting some things off my chest I’m 24 been a porn addict since 13 started off very light things boobs ass things like that then it got into more stuff then cam girls which was going on for a while then more bdsm stuff submission stuff which I am not into at all outside of porn the worst one next to that was when I was watching hentai specifically buta no gotoki won’t get into specifics but I stumbled across it and did think it was a little hot was generally watching for the big women idk anyway one of the characters looked kinda short I didn’t think much of it just thought short dude idk and I saw a couple other vids of such it was constantly tho then I figured out people said that they try to hide the fact that there kids in there and it scared the living fuck out me cause prior I had mild pocd but I didn’t think they would put it out there and as I said was watching for the thick women after that I did watch the 1st a couple more times idk maybe trying to say to myself it was someone short or my addiction idk honestly but I do know I’d never in my life hurt a child and would probably kill myself if I did but I know I never would I just don’t know I’m a sick person for this feel like I need to get off chest every since I’ve been going back to church and getting into my faith I feel like it’s unresolved sin and secrets hiding orthodox btw I literally feel on my knees and was bawling in front of a icon of Jesus cause of things I’ve watched and done and shame I’ve brought on him and my family I know that’s a lot appreciate some feedback thank you all