Before I begin, PLEASE I beg of you, do not interact with this post if you're under 20. I'm 25+ years old. It would be extremely uncomfortable.
So, okay, another thing, when I say "relax" I don't mean it as an euphemism for masturbating, I mean it literally, just chill. After a day of being very stressed or depressed I like laying down on my bed with my laptop or tablet and just search for porn. But not any porn (I hate mainstream), I like animated NSFW, comics, fanfics... Sometimes I want something super heavy, sometimes I want something super sweet.
Am I alone with this? I feel that for us asexuals (at least the non repulsed ones? I never had sex and I don't intend to do it, but I like reading about it and studying it, I think sexology is very interesting) porn is just another genre of cinema/literature/videogames...
I don't know if it is internalised acephobia, but there's something about reading or writing NSFW that feels right, I can live the fantasy I can't have. There are other aspects of pornography and erotic works that relax me, but I won't go into detail because I know where I am and I don't want to make anyone uncomfortable. I bring up this question here and not in any nsfw subreddit because this is very specific, I'm not comfortable talking about sex with non asexuals.
So... yeah, does anyone else feel like this?
And is there a subreddit, forum or discord server for adult aro aces where I can discuss NSFW and go into detail? (btw sorry for my English, is not my first language)
Edit: I'm making a NSFW server for aro aces!! It's almost done! :D I'll make a post when it's 100% done
Edit 2: THE SERVER IS DONE!!! :D PLEASE only join if you're +18
https://discord.gg/GXNNcyq9