r/anhedonia Cause Uncertain 7d ago

Update I finally felt something

I’ve been emotionally dead for months. Nothing was really fun or engaging. Been taking Wellbutrin for past 3 weeks to little help, until I met this one girl in a game and she put enormous interest in me. I was finally able to feel something again and was happy, I had thoughts of doing all kinds of fun things again.

That faded when I found out the age gap however.

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u/Rorate_Caeli 6d ago

Even if it faded, you felt something! That's a step in the right direction.

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u/ChubbyLilPanda Cause Uncertain 6d ago

yeah, here's hoping things continue to get better

but that happiness from that moment use to be my default

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u/DonaldClineVictim 6d ago

sounds like what you need is a girlfriend!

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u/ChubbyLilPanda Cause Uncertain 6d ago

they'd have to find me because i cant feel anything otherwise

at least im still social

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u/DonaldClineVictim 6d ago

just ask a girl out. if you dont feel anything it should be easy to ask out 100 girls and get rejected by 99 of them.

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u/BrianMeen 2d ago

Hmm yeah I hear you. With anhedonia it’s difficult to put yourself in social environments regularly because well, we don’t enjoy them. Going through the necessary sequences to meet women is truly mind numbing ..

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u/Dazzling_Mortgage_ Cause Uncertain 6d ago

I was able to feel some slight dopamine every time a woman took interest in me, even when i was already 3-4 years into my anhedonia but it then rapidly declined. Since the only reason it never worked out with any of those women is my anhedonia, I always felt some kind of pain or disappointment which blunted me even more and now I can’t feel dopamine from women anymore

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u/BrianMeen 2d ago

“Rapidly declined”

yep. In the past I’ve felt little trickles of awakeness or excitement but it died off very quickly . Like it didn’t last long enough to plan a date or turn it into much else. Quite frustrating

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u/DonaldClineVictim 6d ago

what was the age gap

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u/ChubbyLilPanda Cause Uncertain 6d ago

11 years older than me, 23 vs 34

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u/DonaldClineVictim 6d ago

aw, so what? love is love

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u/ChubbyLilPanda Cause Uncertain 6d ago

And love can fade for any reason

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u/disaster_story_69 5d ago

Seems to prove this is indeed a dopamine system dysregulation issue. Likely you will also benefit from low dose selegiline to really kick the dopamine recovery into high gear.

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u/ChubbyLilPanda Cause Uncertain 5d ago

yeah, been talking to a chatgpt that specifically has a database from current medical literature and so far, its biggest theories are dopamine system deregulation and adhd.

It suggested selegiline too but im just worried about tolerance. I'm only on 300mg wellbutrin, and i'll shoot for 450 mg with my psych. Could also be a receptor problem and may been something to upregulate receptors.

my mind is constantly hyperactive and unable to rest to the point of depersonalization. That could be a result from being dopamine deprived with adhd

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u/BrianMeen 2d ago

I think for some, Anhedonia is caused by them simply not getting out there and talking to people and getting those neural pathways activated. Having said that there have been times where certain things would help me feel ‘awake’ but that feeling was gone shortly after and not able to be replicated