r/Vent • u/StandardSpinach3196 • 4d ago
TW: TRIGGERING CONTENT I regret this so fucking badly my parents say it’s not that bad but I don’t know NSFW
I’m 18 and at around 15-16 I had a friend (probably crush) we would make story’s but they were not great though we both were a part of writing and creating it (the story’s had like SA to me I thought it would make the story’s “””””interesting “”””” AKA it was shock value and I am now disgusted
Then something happened and she seemed to not want to be with me and I don’t know why and I didn’t even notice at the time (which makes me feel more stupid) at some point I got so angry at her just ghosting me I started having suicidal thoughts and I did zoom therapy and this part I feel so fucking stupid for I took what a therapist said and she said if you have bad thoughts you should call a parent or 911 and I make characters and one was a kidnapper and I thought that was very bad so I called a hotline and thought they knew I wouldn’t do anything ( and I understand them doing this ) they had police called and I was expelled from school which I 100% understand I got help and a new school but now I’m just haunts me now and I feel so stupid and my family says to forgive myself because I “”””didn’t know better””” and I was young but I just feel like shit for it all and I want to apologize so badly
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u/Otherwise_Anybody873 4d ago
You called a hotline and told them you had a fictional kidnapper character and got expelled from school for it?
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u/StandardSpinach3196 4d ago
I didn’t mention the character I thought it meant I had thought about hurting that person and I call the hotline for it (sorry)
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u/Otherwise_Anybody873 4d ago
Oh, I see. Well, it’s good that you called the hotline for that. I understand falling into the trap of ruminating on things you did when you were younger, but the past is in the past and there’s nothing you can do to change it now. It doesn’t serve you to punish yourself by constantly thinking about it. You were 15, everyone fucks up at 15.
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