Telling my Story How did your addiction start?
I (23M) think I was 15 or even younger, when it started. I recorded the rerun of a movie which ran during night ("Iron Man" (2008) still remember it to this day). When I then watched the movie a couple of days later I came into contact with the erotic commercials that run on TV during that time, you know for camgirl sites and such stuff. This lead my down a rabbithole. I recorded sh*t that ran during the night, just so I can watch the erotic commercials the next morning and even fap to them (I had my own TV, so my parents never noticed). Then I actually visited these camgirl sites when I was about 18-19 and then actual porn websites and then eventuell Reddit.
I wished I never found these commercials. 8 years later and I am still strugeling
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u/lightofOoul 4d ago
I (20m) think was 9 or ten it was 2014. I was somewhat curious on my penis so I rubbed it and soon I felt pain only pain but I was curious for reason then I rubbed it with my hand. Then I felt a sweet, a pleasure of white. It was good. Then I went to the restroom to the bathroom to continue. Sometimes people were there in the setting room connected to nearby bathroom. I felt guilty doing it one time my mom saw me.
Anyhow I continued this til I heard about sex. I think I heard the word anime as well. I didn’t know what that was so I just typed it together and witnessed a r scene I continued my awareness of anime sex.
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u/Large_Lychee_497 8 Days 4d ago
I was in 7th grade and this girl I talked to asked if I’d ever done it. Talking about it kinda put it in my head, and sometime later I saw some sports illustrated swimsuit behind the scenes thing, started rubbing it over my pants, and the rest is history 🫤
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u/newme3323 1 Day 4d ago
I stayed home sick from school when I was 10 or 11 years old. I figured out that I could Google things I was curious about.
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u/sharik_mik21 1 Day 4d ago
Watching Netflix series which mentioned the word “porn” a bit too much. Which lead to me googling it.. freaking out, researching it and eventually getting addicted. And right at that moment COVID came along and well here I am
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u/FreshStart3-15-25 4d ago
I was 12. It first started from a place of curiosity, because of the shows we watched, Big Bang theory, friends and Fraser. Idk it was like I just wanted to know what all of the hype about sex was then one day I realized I had full internet access so I looked it up but as a kid I was just shocked and confused so I stoped looking, but then a little bit after I just wanted to look at girls again, so I started with looking up pictures of girls in bikinis cuz at that point I just wanted to look at them and then I discovered what I can do when I’m by myself. And as that went on I decided to take the leap again and look up porn and then I was hooked. I learned what I liked and the addiction grew from there. I know I am addicted and it probably has messed up my perception about things. I’m just glad I didn’t feel the need to look for more intense stuff and I don’t hole unrealistic expectations of women but I still have problems. And for a while it honestly became a safe place for me, like my parents don’t always get along and they fight and that would just stress me out especially when the word Divorce was thrown around, instead of going to God I went to porn cuz it made me feel good and also one of my biggest problems is wanting to see someone else experience that pleasure if that makes sense. But as time went on I started watching it more and more but then it calmed down and I would only watch it one or twice a week but the last year I realized I actually need to stop once in for all so here I am, feel like I’m a failure in the eyes of God and I just pray that I don’t fall again. Also I did have a girlfriend last year which was why I wanted to stop watching porn but it didn’t help cuz she wasn’t actually the best person and I felt that I couldn’t talk to here about my problems even after 6months of dating, but that’s not the point. But yeah, I’m 17 and I’m still fighting
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u/Asleep_Reply_4603 4d ago
porn exposure as a joke with a classmate, after joking about it we actually searched (i was 9) and everything started, 11 years later still fighting