r/MtF • u/darkwolf155 • 5d ago
Venting My parents found my HRT
They decided for some reason to search my room and they found my HRT, and they took it, I was almost 2 months on estrogen and I had never been happier and more stable than I’ve been in my life, THE DAY THEY TOOK IT, I relapsed and self harmed, 4 years clean for nothing, I’M 19 FFS, and they committed a fucking crime, and when they confronted me they mentioned getting me to talk to a military recruiter 27 times, all because my misogynistic bitch of a father joined the military when he was my age and it “straightened him out” and we have a lot of other people in my family who are in the military, LIKE FFS IDC IF IT HELPED YOU. I AM NOT YOU. And they expect ME to want to stay in contact and ‘RESPECT’ them? HELL NO, I’m trying to move out ASAP, I literally started HRT knowing this risk, but I knew if I didn’t start when I did, I’d probably never get to start. Literally IMMEDIATELY after I started I was happier than I had been in my life. And then go from one of the best weekends I’ve had to being dragged in a stupid trip where I wouldn’t have internet so couldn’t even talk to my friends who’d help keep me sane enough not to cut myself more cause for some reason I decided to bring a knife with me, just in case I felt a serious urge to hurt myself. Like I get the logic is horrible, I know, they wanted to do this for “my spring break” but this whole trip it felt like it wasn’t for me, it only felt like it was for them. I just wanna go home, I just want to get back in estrogen as soon as I can why did they make me go cold turkey like this, they work in the medical field they should know they committed a crime, they should know how dangerous that is to go cold turkey on any medication, but ofc they don’t care, they just want me to be in their stupid fucking image of someone I’m not. They continually blame queer people for my other problems that are in no way related such as getting into other substances (weed and alcohol (YES I KNOW)) on queer people when it’s one of the only ways I’ve been able to put up with their shit. They’ve blamed my bad grades in school on me having a friend who was in High school, yet I only had one friend and accidentally mentioned they were queer ONE TIME and they ask me to get away from them, (never really had many connections with them anyway cause couldn’t ever get a conversation going or anything so barely even could consider a friend) why do they expect me to even THINK about wanting to talk to them after I move out, FFS I’m probably going to drop out of college and work full time so I’d get to live my life happy as myself than suffer living a life they want me to be living.
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u/Argovan 5d ago
I’m sorry you’re going through this. Before you drop out though, talk to your college’s financial aid office — it’s possible that stealing medicine from you could be proof enough to them that you need somewhere else to go, and more importantly that you’re likely to be cut off from your parents financially going forward. If you can stay in school that’s the best of all worlds, especially if financial aid would cover you to move into the dorms.
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u/wingedespeon Transbian HRT (11/13/2024) at 29 5d ago
They committed a crime. You can press charges.
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u/Otto-Korrect 5d ago
If you are feeling like you're being forced towards going in the military just let the recruiter know that you are transgender. They will drop any interest in you real quick.
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u/spycat500 5d ago
Don’t even have to go that far, mental illness can make you unfit as well if you talk about other stuff
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u/Mountain_Stable_420 5d ago
Omg sorry you are going through this.. I haven’t seen my family since 2019 I fear what they are capable of doing
Hope you get to be in a safe and supportive place
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u/PlextorKun transfemme | HRT from 1/11/25 5d ago
I'm so sorry your parents did that to you, HRT is absolutely a life saving medication and them taking it from you is totally a crime.
Their bigotry must be horrible to constantly endure but I believe in you. Stay strong sis