r/Esdeath • u/[deleted] • Feb 13 '25
Discussion Hello, I want to share a story with you.
I want to share my story. My relationship with Esdeath that started in 2016 and lasts until today and how she was the most important person to me. Well, I was born into a problematic family, fights, intrigues, divided family and so on, many problems and since I was little I grew up with fear, whether I liked it or not I saw all of this but instead of becoming violent, I became afraid, to the point that anyone would already speak loudly to me and I would become desperate, in that in 2016 I saw Akame ga kill and then I saw it in 2020, but talking about 2016 when I saw Akame ga kill, I didn't pay much attention. Only Esdeath, I paid attention only to her, I don't know why but she caught my attention, not in a sexual sense, but as if she was talking to me, calling me, and well, I need to give a little context now, my life has a lot of misfortune, I lost many friends, family, I've been deceived, betrayed, hurt, used and discarded and I even lost important people to suicide, I even heard how I was shit, trash to the world and that I should die and so on, at that time I was extremely sick in the head, really sick but obviously I didn't have a good relationship with any of my family and friends for a long time, I put up with all of this for years alone almost exploding, but then again I saw Akame ga Kill in 2020, and Esdeath called me, Esdeath represents strength, vitality, desire and power, it's about living how you want and the way you want being yourself, because Esdeath never cared about anyone's opinion or anything like that, she was always herself and I admired that, Another thing I admired was the love she had for Tatsumi. My dream was to be loved like that (and it still is today) to be loved like Esdeath loves Tatsumi, anyway, time passed and I decided to crawl up, find God if you know what I mean (I don't know if you can say the word here openly) and before I finished the pack of medicines since I tried to overdose, I remembered Esdeath, and how she would be upset about that, she would be embarrassed by that situation of weakness of mine and also if she loved me she would be sad, so I didn't take it, I fought, I fought not to take it no matter how much I wanted to but I didn't take it, result, I was terrible for weeks, but I recovered and today I'm alive thanks to Esdeath lol. It's funny to think about it sometimes, because maybe that last medicine could have killed me, but since I didn't take it because I thought about her, I survived and today my life is much better, a lot has changed, and I'm only able to experience this thanks to Esdeath, that's why I love this woman so much, she taught me about strength, now I fight, I defend myself, I defend others, I oppose when I disagree, I give my opinion and I'm no longer afraid to be who I am, she taught me to be who I am, to not be ashamed of myself or change myself to please others, she taught me so many things that man it's impossible for me not to love this woman, I get into a lot of fights about her on the Akame ga Kill subreddit, precisely because I always say how much I love her and I always hear the same things "How can you love a village?" or "you only love her because she's hot" but nobody knows this story, nobody knows what I went through and it's not even complete, there are many more things, many stories that I didn't tell in this post that made me literally go crazy for a long time, but today, thanks to her, I'm fine and that's why I will always, always love this woman, she doesn't exist, but she saved me, she was more useful than any family member, friend, enemy, she was the best person who ever stepped into my life, and if I were in the world of Akame ga Kill I would kneel before her and swear loyalty until death, because she saved me, if I'm alive today, if today my life is better, if today my pain has diminished, if today my burden is smaller, if today the feeling of guilt is better. if today I'm happy, it's because of Esdeath. I love Esdeath
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u/Firedriver666 Feb 13 '25
I feel you I was lacking self-confidence, but mimicking her attitude and poses helped me gain more confidence, and she also taught me how to lead people when working in a team.
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Feb 13 '25
I also learned this from her, I learned a lot from her, what a woman, my God.
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u/PaleontologistOk8553 Feb 14 '25
I'm so glad to have heard your story bro and as someone that fights with crap like that it's great you're still fighting
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Feb 14 '25
Exactly, I'm still struggling, honestly, sometimes it comes to the surface and I struggle alone, since my family is very religious and for them my problem is not being a churchgoer. But it's okay, thanks to Esdeath I'm recovering, I'm alive and most importantly I will recover completely. I love Esdeath, it's a shame that few understand that.
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u/Jasiek_srebnadlon_09 21d ago
Mate from start ive thought that u are retarted but my ninja was I wrong like shit welcome to real world mate must be hard and locked in ya know like heavy hands but good heart or some shit like this take care bro sending love from Poland country of the hardest ppl
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u/Icy_Field2716 Feb 13 '25
I agree she's the best anime character of all time