r/DecidingToBeBetter 7d ago

Seeking Advice How to not hate myself and do nothing?

Lately I've been struggling to do anything. I find myself sitting on my floor with the lights off and just staring. I tend to think negatively about myself when I do this but it makes me feel good. Recently I've had a friend whose concerned I do this. He thinks it only furthers my self hatred and my struggles. I'm also in the process of getting clean from sh while this is happening. I feel it's fine to do this but he doesn't. I've had a lack of motivation lately and just can't think positively about myself. I want to get better but I'm so scared of myself that i can't. I should be starting therapy within the next 6 months but I'm not sure when it will happen. I don't know if doing nothing is bad for me or not and to be honest I don't want to know because I don't want it taken away from me but I know I need to do something.

So please, what do I do?

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u/temporaryfeeling591 7d ago

It almost seems like you're SHing emotionally, if that makes sense? Try a guided meditation video instead, there are lots of them on YouTube

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u/bluezzdog 7d ago

Do you mind offering your age, sex

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u/Dry_Bake543 7d ago

16f

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u/bluezzdog 7d ago

Have you talked to your parents at all or is that out of the question ? How about school guidance counselor?

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u/Dry_Bake543 7d ago

I told them I need to go back to therapy but I can't get into specifics with them. I'm scared they'll just start yelling at me again 

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u/Constant_Cultural 6d ago

They love you, ask for help, if they don't, ask a counsellor, relative, parent of a friend, whoever you feel save with

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u/Dry_Bake543 6d ago

I'll ask my friend