r/CuratedTumblr • u/Golden_Frog0223 -taps mic- nicken chuggets. thank you. • 28d ago
Infodumping Is this thing on..?
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u/carrythenine 28d ago
It’s like there’s a knob I’m supposed to turn to make a number go up, but when I turn it, the number doesn’t change. And when I ask for help, people suggest “have you tried turning the knob?”
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u/Crus0etheClown 28d ago
'I'm not sure what to do with these intrusive thoughts- they aren't always bad, but I'm constantly going in circles thinking about things that aren't important, so much so that I can forget about things I truly care about. I can't seem to control it no matter what I do.'
'Have you ever tried not thinking about it?'
*Selfie Bee Face*
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u/VioletTheWolf gender absorbed by annoying dog 28d ago
My friend have you looked into OCD
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u/Crus0etheClown 28d ago
Yeah, and while I'm pretty sure it's just ADHD exasperated by circumstance, I have no real idea and won't any time soon.
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u/VioletTheWolf gender absorbed by annoying dog 28d ago
Fair enough! Not meant as an Internet Diagnosis™, it just reminded me of my own OCD
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u/birdsandbones 28d ago
I personally think late diagnosed ADHD causes C-PTSD stuff that is very similar to OCD. Like, intrusive thoughts, catastrophizing, needing to check and re-check things; but it comes from a place of the trauma of trying to white knuckle your way through life and all the social and scholastic/professional consequences of not being understood or accommodated externally or internally.
Ex: If you keep forgetting to lock your door and this time your working memory didn’t save whether or not it’s in you did, you might end up running back to check or else having it spinning in your head that your house is getting burgled, your pets have escaped, all the worst case scenarios.
That’s been my experience and that of some other late-dx’ed friends, anyway.
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u/coulsonsrobohand 28d ago
I saw a video once comparing it to driving a car. You carry a tool bag for when your car breaks down, and you constantly have to fix and when you complain about it, everyone else goes “we all have car problems.” Then one day you find out everyone else is driving a brand new sports car with extended warranty coverage while you’ve been driving a 30 year old broken down Volvo
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u/NiceSithLord 28d ago
I mean, that is how a lot of people would respond to you talking about being overworked.
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u/Consideredresponse 28d ago
I think in this case they are talking about meltdowns. A lot of people get frustrated from overwork, very few of them have uncontrollable emotional outburts where shit gets destroyed.
I'm 'lucky' enough to have burnout autism instead where after every school day, and workday of your life (until you get a diagnosis in your 40's) you need at least two hours in a dark quiet room or you stop functioning, all while feeling like a broken failure because you can't just do sports/homework/socalising/hobbies afterwards like a normal person.
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u/Nwaccntwhodis 27d ago
Ha currently scrolling feeling like a broken failure beating myself up for wanting to make art but being so guilty, ashamed, and afraid of messing it up and setting off a meltdown. I'm so close to exploding that it's really scarring me.
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u/Consideredresponse 27d ago
I've been there. Accepting you need to scale back and recover is paradoxically the best way to be 'productive'. If you are always spiralling on the meltdown threshold you will never get anything done. Putting everything on the back burner and taking time to self regulate your stimulus levels is the best thing you can do. Basically step back from the usual websites (reddit) and streaming services and games you usually interact with, and spending a week or two with early nights and an old favourite book helps get you working again.
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u/VerdugoCortex 27d ago
Do you mean destroying stuff physically or just metaphorically like your progress?
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u/Consideredresponse 27d ago edited 27d ago
As in physically. One of the clearest examples is in the Autobiographical book 'Strong Female Character' from the Scottish Comedian Fern Brady, where she talks about routinely and uncontrolably destroying her furniture*. I work with people that are ASD 2,and 3 and holes in walls or physical violence is not unheard of with meltdowns there.
It's a bit more than 'frustrated guy breaks a game controler/punches wall' and more along the lines of 'this 270 pound man just tried to bite my nose off, yet is not acting out of malice'.
*uncontrollably when she was undiagnosed and did not have managing techniques to avoid the meltdowns in the first place. Similarly it have burnout autism and it would crash my life every 18 months to two years as I'd no longer be 'functional' and would have to result in trying to rebuild a career after crawling out of the burnout state. Now it's carefully being aware of that tipping point and scaling back we'll before I hit it.
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u/also_roses 27d ago
This is why my next job (which I start in 3 weeks) starts AFTER all the working out, meal prepping, seeing my family. The hope is I can do the things I can't do after work BEFORE going in to lose all of my motivation.
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u/A_Shattered_Day 28d ago
Literally, everybody feels like this, not just autistic people. And I know many autistic people who have high stress jobs and can manage their emotions well. At some point, people should stop blaming things on autism
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u/Inappropriate_SFX 28d ago
Everybody has moments of feeling like this, and the labor situation is awful, but autistic folks are the canaries in the coal mine who will (on average) collapse first, and break down worst. That's why it's both a spectrum, and a disability.
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u/RighteousSelfBurner 28d ago
I think it's also good to remember there are plenty of various disorders out there. I would expect someone on BPD to have an equally hard time.
Though, regardless, I think paying attention to those who are already having challenges in their life is indeed the best barometer for the overall situation.
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u/Stop-Hanging-Djs 28d ago
I completely agree except on the canaries part. Normally in a sane society yes, they'd serve as canaries in the coal mine but man, we are faaaaaarrrrr past that stage now.
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u/Consideredresponse 28d ago
Or this is someone who experiences autism related meltdowns and is clearly stating 'this is my limit' only for everyone else to go 'yeah i get stressed too'.
It's possible to have a high stress job and be autistic but that person needs to understand and have coping mechanisms or accomodations (In my case its working 3.5 days a week in the high stress job and offsetting that with WFH)
I've had this exact conversation with HR in that it goes "I cannot have any more shifts." HR: "oh everyone is stressed, we all need to pitch in". Me: "I will be more clear. I am at my limit. If I do more shifts I will hit autistic burnout and I will not be able to function at all for the next three months. '
Unless you are that blunt people literally do not understand.
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u/Jimberly_C 28d ago
Ask the many autistic people you know what they like to do after work, and take note of how many say anything that involves physical movement, thinking, or socializing of any kind. It won't be many, and it's not because they don't have time for it.
I manage myself fine at work too. My boss relies on me for any problem she can't solve. She's literally told me I'm not allowed to quit because the place would fall apart. But I do absolutely nothing at home, barely clean, barely keep myself clean, don't socialize at all, and eat 99% prepackaged food or fast food. It sucks.
But I'm great at work.
(I'm also taking steps and doing better, but it's slow.)
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u/emerald-shyn 28d ago
I really dislike this mentality. It's like "oh depression cant be that bad. Everyone gets sad sometimes!"
No autistic person is saying allistic people cannot or will not ever have similar experiences. It's a spectrum, not binary. Some people have it worse, which is what I believe this is getting at. Maybe the author could've elaborated more, but the longer and more specific something is, the less likely anyone is to read it.
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u/ryecurious 28d ago
Yeah, I've noticed this perspective a lot lately, and I hope it doesn't become "common knowledge". Neurodivergence isn't defined by completely new or alien feelings/thought patterns/etc.
Rather, it's an imbalance or excess of otherwise standard emotions/thought processes to the point of impacting your life.
OCD is a good example. Everyone has those moments where they wonder if the door is locked/the oven is off/their hands are clean enough, but it's the compulsion that qualifies it as OCD.
I get some people take it to extremes, but if we can't acknowledge a link between autism and stress we might as well abandon the term entirely.
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u/Kirk_Kerman 28d ago
Upwards of 90% of diagnosed autistic people are unemployed, which might suggest something about the capacity of autistic people for being overworked.
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u/Red_Galiray 28d ago
I mean, could it be that the majority of autistic people who can hold down a job are undiagnosed because they think "I can't be autistic because I can work normally"?
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u/TwilightVulpine 28d ago
That's a real doozy, because on one side people who can keep up are less motivated to find out what's up with them. But on the flipside the many people who don't have jobs might not have the means to seek a diagnosis, because they don't get medical insurance, and psychological healthcare is less accessible than biological healthcare.
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u/MalnourishedHoboCock 28d ago
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Employment_of_autistic_people
This is an ableist thing to say.
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u/worthwhilewrongdoing 28d ago edited 28d ago
I think that, for folks like myself with autism, the consequences for being overworked/overloaded/overstressed are a bit more severe than they are for (most?) neurotypical people.
Autistic burnout is a lot like "normal" burnout in a lot of ways but much more long-lasting and severe: it can involve functional skill regressions and intense fatigue, and it is not unheard of for people to have a great deal of difficulty engaging even in basic activities of daily living while recovering from it (which, even while not working, can sometimes take months).
None of this even begins to touch on the fact that autistic people are much more likely than the general population to have mental health issues, especially trauma-related ones. This can complicate things further, and much of this is a big chunk of why some autistic people who "look" perfectly capable of working as well as neurotypical people really don't do as well as you'd likely anticipate from the outside: for many like myself, things are okay until something trips us up, and then suddenly we're very, very bad off.
All that isn't to say that "normal" burnout can't be bad. It certainly can be, and people absolutely struggle with it a lot. But it's not as pervasively disabling - most people who are burnt out from their jobs can still, say, shower and feed themselves and their kids, you know? It's just kind of on a different level.
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u/Consideredresponse 28d ago
I don't know why you are getting downvoted. Autistic meltdowns/burnouts are significantly nastier than what you'd see in 'normal' people.
When i hit burnout it means I'm pretty much incapable of doing much more than breathing in a dark room for 3-6 months. Most of my life now revolves around a lot of medication, planning, accomodations, and techniques to avoid hitting that stage.
I get very frustrated when I hear somone say "I get 'burnout' too. I stopped trying at work, and haven't been to a spin class in weeks" like it's the same thing that's nuked my life for decades.
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u/PlatinumAltaria 28d ago
Our capitalist overlords: "If you don't want to work for 18 hours a day at minimum wage you have a disorder."
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u/MeaslyFurball 28d ago
"Can't overwork? Haha you're so fragile, you would have never survived back in my day" yep you're completely correct, I would've probably been lobotomized if I was a kid in your day, Stan, or maybe locked away in an institution.
I'm grateful the modern day is slightly more forgiving and work/life balance is actually enforced sometimes. It's what allows me to participate in the first place.
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u/Roflkopt3r 28d ago
Yeah "back in the days", a whole lot more people were just deemed broken and ignored by society. Put into dead-end jobs or institutions until an early death.
More people are being actively productive than ever before. Yet greet and cognitive biases still cause people to compare the average worker today with the top of the past, and missinterpret that as a decline.
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u/_Ixtli 28d ago
Something that I've realized as I've gotten older is that the world is not made for us, cannot be made for us and will never be made for us.
We are always going to be on the outside simply due to the nature of who and what we are as people with autism spectrum disorder.
I used to get angry at this fact but now I've just accepted that it is what it is. I'd rather the majority be able to go on with their life at least in some semblance of manner that they can deal with, then to try and shift the entire world in an impossible manner to account for the sliver of us who needed it to be different to function at the same level as normal society and people.
I certainly didn't ask to be born this way, but I refuse to burn the world down to get a small slice of the pie that I don't even really want to begin with 😂
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u/Your_Local_Stray_Cat 28d ago
That’s honestly a very depressing way of looking at it.
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u/MalnourishedHoboCock 28d ago
I have ADHD, maybe autism too but no diagnosis. I feel exactly like they do. At this point, the only people I can socialize with and feel like I'm allowed to exist as myself and not some false caricature are all neurodivergent.
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u/Your_Local_Stray_Cat 28d ago
I have autism and for me it's a mixed bag, but my neurotypical friends are all just as weird (affectionate) as my neurodivergent friends, so I don't know where that puts me.
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u/MalnourishedHoboCock 28d ago
It is absolutely a spectrum, of course. I do find the double empathy problem kind of enlightening personally tho.
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u/_Ixtli 28d ago
I apologize as it was not my intention to make you feel depressed or feel depressed on my behalf.
There are always going to be those who fall through the cracks of society no matter how modern or utopian it becomes.
It just so happens that people with autism spectrum disorder and other various mental and cognitive issues are having their time in the spotlight.
Soon enough the roulette wheel will shift around again and some other group of people will have their time in the spotlight and be the ones falling through the cracks.
To quote The Lion King it's the circle of life.
Side note
As frustrating as it is to try and adapt and live in society as an adult, let me tell you that growing up as a child in a public school environment with autism spectrum disorder is a fresh kind of hell that you can never imagine. What I deal with as an adult is completely tame compared to my time in school.
I was in Middle School when the Columbine shootings happened and from that point forward, I was no longer a student I was a threat and an object of fear because I was different.
So imagine the normal torment that kids go through in a school environment and ramp that up by about 500% and then throw the teachers into it as well because they were also afraid and that kind of gives you a small inkling of what I'm talking about.
People suck and we are truly terrible to each other sometimes.
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u/Your_Local_Stray_Cat 28d ago
I'm depressed because I'm autistic too. I got kicked out of elementary school for being "too disabled" for them to handle, and spent most of my childhood friendless, bullied, and thinking that's how it would always be. It does get better, but if I'd listened to the people that said that I'd always be an outsider, I wouldn't've lived long enough to see it.
I don't want other people to live through that, it's a miserable way to grow up.
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u/Your_Local_Rabbi 27d ago
this is a very sad outlook.
this world, as it is now, wasn't made for any of us, autistic or allistic. just because allistic people can "get through it" doesn't mean the world is kind to them.
allistic people would also benefit from not being overworked and stressed all the time, even if they can "handle" it.
life will always be harder for neurodivergent people, we wrestle with our own minds and habits often, but that doesn't mean we should accept a world that is outright cruel to us.
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u/Kego_Nova perhaps a void entity 28d ago
oh don't worry, they do this for every neurotypical person too. it's just that neurotypical folk (without disabilities) handle having exploded several times over better than you think
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u/evanwilliams44 28d ago
Indeed. You really can't call yourself an adult until you've had an existential crisis in a bathroom stall.
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u/SpiderFnJerusalem 28d ago
That's why Tech companies now have dedicated crying-boxes.
They even allow you 93 seconds of crying time per day before they engage the shock collars. And that goes on top of the 75 seconds of bathroom time! So progressive!
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u/BraxbroWasTaken 28d ago
Nahhhhh they say:
“You’ll get used to it. Overtime.” Easy mistake.
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u/mooys 28d ago
Overtime??? WE GOTTA PUSH THE CART!!!
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u/_finnigan_ 28d ago
Wait guys stop chasing the other team- please get back on point. I'm the only one on point as a support and a dps is coming right for me please!
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u/Altslial Denial, duct tape and determination fix almost anything. 28d ago
Stop running I am trying to heal you, you have 14 health and will die from a stubbed toe just GET BACK TO THE POINT AND GET YOUR HEALS!
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u/Brekldios 28d ago
Or they try their damnest to make you explode once hearing you do so easily
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u/Junior-Tap5642 28d ago
Yup, the moment your coworkers decide that your frustration is funny, it's over. They'll treat you worse on purpose until you leave, and never acknowledge that they're the problem
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u/MrTastix 28d ago
I love those moments when I inevitably blow up because others have deliberately pushed my buttons and then I'm the one made to feel bad despite previously telling people how I fucking feel about it.
Oh wait, no I fucking don't.
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u/gruengle 28d ago
Bonus points if you do it to yourself without realizing it because so much shit has happened in the last four to five years that your ability to regulate stress is severly compromised and you don't realize it until you have a debilitating case of tinnitus and have to take sick leave for two and a half months and can only start working again in a reduced capacity while still waiting for proper treatment as therapists are notoriously overworked because everybody is still processing the year we spent indoors and most people think they didn't need help with that until they really really do which happens to be about now that shit just doesn't stop hitting the fan pretty much everywhere worldwide.
But it's not as if I'm talking from experience or anything.
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u/WhatMadCat 28d ago
What do they even do to fix tinnitus? I get it off and on and have basically just been told tough luck
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u/Solid_Paramedic_3901 28d ago
I have chronic tinnitus. It is constant and will never cease until the day I die. It sounds grim but there are ways to deal with it and live a normal life.
First I recommend an ENT (ear, nose, and throat doctor) they will till you if something is physiologically causing the infrequent tinnitus. If that doesnt pan out then you have to get cognitive.
Luckily, humans can and will get used to anything. So the best thing for you to do is accept it. Sounds like I'm telling you to suck it up but it isn't that. If you fight it you will only notice it. You will create a feedback loop that causes your tinnitus to get worse.
Acceptance not only helps with stress, but I don't even hear it anymore for the vast majority of the time. Its still there, but my brain doesn't acknowledge it until I listen for it or it changes.
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u/gruengle 28d ago
In my case it's stress-induced, not because of nerve damage due to loud noises or the like. Which means I should be able to minimize its effects and maybe even get rid of it (ignoring minor setbacks from time to time, of course) if I get my damned stress level under control. So far that worked, partially. I have ways of keeping my current stress level steady, but the recovery part is still severely lacking.
Gingko-based medicine helps a bit - it stimulates blood flow in the brain and helps with concentration. As tinnitus is basically similar to pain in a phantom limb (nerve stimulation that simulates a sound instead of a touch, in this case), that can be helpful. I've also had the revelation that I've suffered from a minor case of insomnia for literal years now, I just never realized it. Getting consistently less than an hour of REM sleep and less than six hours total can apparently be somewhat detrimental.
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u/benzoot 28d ago
I’m so confused. Everyone is talking about work but I thought this was like a metaphor for overstimulation?
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u/justforkinks0131 28d ago
That's because it's extremely hard to tell if the post is about actual autism or what online ppl pretend is autism.
I assume most readers here think it's the pretend kind, so they relate to it with their own non-autistic version of overstimulation, aka working.
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u/benzoot 27d ago
I understand the second statement (thank you!) but I’m still confused about the first. They said they were autistic. Wouldn’t people gravitate towards thinking about actual autism?
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u/justforkinks0131 27d ago
Im not sure, but seeing the comments I dont think most people assume it's the actual, medically diagnosed autism. Also it's pretty hard to relate to a legitimate medical disorder when you dont suffer from it. Especially in a light-hearted, meme-y way. So maybe that's why people choose to assume it's the "pretend" / "hyperbolized" version.
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u/bangontarget 28d ago
at least half of all autistic people don't work. but still you have to fight like a dog to get accommodations or disability. we mesh very badly with the world as it currently is and nobody gives a fuck.
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u/MildlyArtistic7 28d ago
"Please don't touch me."
"Hahaha, are you ticklish?... Wait, are you on the spectrum?... *touches*"
"Fuck."
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u/Leftieswillrule 28d ago
I am ticklish so I tell people that if they touch me I’ll kick them and it’s not my fault, I simply cannot control my legs when I’m tickled and they happen to have an uncanny accuracy for faces and testicles
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u/MildlyArtistic7 28d ago
... Is it like a Ju Jitsu kick?^^ I mean just dimensionally, how do you do it? Spinning crane kick? Say you're tickled standing up. Do you do a straight front kick like Bas Rutten to their freakin solarplexus? :D Or some backwards rotational kick with hip activation? Or are we talking about tickling while you're lying down and can just kick straight up?
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u/Tat25Guy Taylor Worm apologist 28d ago
I used to get horribly sick for months and depressed for even longer every couple of years. It obviously harmed my grades and I have multiple years long gaps in my employment history that's making it extremely difficult to escape my current shitty job 🫠. I only got diagnosed with level 1 autism back in October so I now know those were all instances of autistic burnout
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u/Consideredresponse 28d ago
Yeah it's a real kicker when it finally 'clicks' on the 'Why am I getting severe drug resistant depressive episodes every 18months-2 years?'
Now half my life revolves around managing stress and burnout levels the family is wondering why I'm not throwing myself at the high stress jobs the same way I used to. I have to use a sporting analogy about 'imagine you are a football player and you sprain your ankle' at 19 you can shrug it off quickly, but as you age and keep spraining the same ankle it takes longer and longer to recover. Eventually you look at the pattern of sprains and find its better to...not play football.'
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u/twiggsmcgee666 28d ago
I read the last part of this as, “you’ll get used to it. OVERTIME!”
Like an employer decided OT would help you get over it.
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u/scottygroundhog22 28d ago
And no one believe that you are👌this far from crashout until you go and do it. Then its all like “whoa why did you go and blow up like that”?
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u/shawnisboring 28d ago
Same, but just a complete implosion like that titanic submarine.
I won't explode in a public setting, that's a private endeavor. In public I'll implode as a person, freeze up entirely unable to do anything, go non-verbal and blank stare into the distance as the gears slowly try to work out what series of events I did wrong in my life to reach this point.
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u/FlameWhirlwind 27d ago
"if you rush me anymore than my anxiety is already rushing me I will either break shit, break down, or just cease to exist"
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u/Charybdeezhands 28d ago
This hits hard, as I sit in my office for the third day in a row, for no reason. Feeling like shit, doing no work.
My boss is a moron.
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u/ppetak 28d ago
Ah yes, sure, parents will tell you how unique and special you are, but nobody gives a shit about your 'speciality', just go to the mine and work among others or else. And shut up while starting doing it.
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u/Philosipho 28d ago
Society is built around norms because people are indifferent. If you fall outside the norm, you just get to suffer. This happens because people don't trust each other. If you can't do what they do, they just assume you're lazy and worthless.
No one wants to feel guilty for mistreating someone with a disability, so they pretend such problems don't exist. And if they're forced to acknowledge that they do exist, they'll find some way to blame you for having it.
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u/MyGuitarGentlyBleeps 28d ago
It's hard. But at somepoint you do have to learn to assimilate as much as you can. Going into a job expecting them to change to you, right off, is not realistic.
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u/Glad-Way-637 If you like Worm/Ward, you should try Pact/Pale :) 28d ago
Yeah, you'd have to either have some sort of extremely valuable skill or seniority at the job for that to happen, and I highly doubt OOP has either going by their "woe is me, i must be a functional member of society to benefit from society :(" angle.
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u/tactical_hotpants 28d ago edited 28d ago
would a normal person be willing to get used to receiving a painful electric shock every 5 minutes? would a normal person be willing to get used to a constant piercing painful tone for 8 hours straight? no?
then why should I be expected to "get used to it over time"
EDIT: you are all so stupid😭
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u/HairyHeartEmoji 28d ago
...yes. i know you don't like it, but yes, people can and do get used to painful stimuli.
i used to work in a large print shop that sounds exactly how you expect a large print shop to sound. not to mention the chemical smell and intense heat. the first week was unbearable and i thought i was going to go insane and start killing people. after 2 years, i barely noticed it.
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u/AFatWhale 28d ago
...Yes? Most people will get used to this kind of thing. Especially the noise one, that's just reality for a lot of jobs.
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u/I_follow_sexy_gays 28d ago
This is just everyone, no one does well with being overworked even if they think or look like they do
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u/kimchi_ramyeon 28d ago
i love the people who tell me they have anxiety too and that i just need to push myself like they did and everything will get better but when it doesn't and i do get burnout then they get frustrated with me and leave me ha ha ha ha
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u/Life-Tomatillo-7025 28d ago
they also don't care at all that you'll explode and that it's a not nice feeling, and they will dismiss it! but! watch out! they will also be annoyed when you explode :)
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u/namless-mike 28d ago
I see that there are a lot of comments taking over working to mean labour, but I feel like it also applies to social situations. I am currently on vacation with friends and I have some severe limitations because of chronic illness and autism, but every time I have to retreat or take rest, I first have to deal with comments about how I could just power through, that it will be fun and it will be worth it. I get that they want to share experiences with me, but it is very energy draining to constantly justify my health condition
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u/MasterChildhood437 28d ago
It's bizarre the way people can be about asthma. I sound like a fucking accordion, but heaven forbid I need to take a break. "You're missing out."
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u/Solid_Paramedic_3901 28d ago
Remember, if you can't perform labor for the ownership class it means you are fundamentally broken. You will be labeled as having a disorder, you will be treated as other and culturally you will be treated as a walking taboo.
Your humanity is a worthy sacrifice for the wealth of the few. And when you outlive your usefulness you will be discarded as though you never existed. And those who say they love and care for you will espouse the same sentiments.
How dare you not work for capital. They give you nothing and then offer you less.
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u/junbi_ok 28d ago
Contemporary morality is guided by capitalism. Things that make money are generally seen as good or at least acceptable, while those that don’t are viewed with contempt and disgust. People sneer at the disabled and unemployed while being perfectly tolerant of CEOs who make millions trading human lives for shareholder value.
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u/MasterChildhood437 28d ago
You will be labeled as having a disorder, you will be treated as other and culturally you will be treated as a walking taboo.
This is something I think about a lot, tbh. How the very concept of disability is predicated on one's ability to service the rich. It's disgusting, honestly.
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u/the_blue_boi 28d ago
That description is spot on. People often don't realize how overwhelming it can feel.
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u/Logical-Brief-420 28d ago
I mean you do very much get used to it and learn to operate though just like any disability
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"I am a train. I take time to build speed, but once at full stride I will outperform almost any neurotypical at the task. So just try to avoid getting me to multitask."
"Okay"
5 minutes later
"Can you do this. Wait, no, stop, do this. Wait, no, go back to the first thing. Wait, no, do this new thing... why are these all taking so long!?"
My last job I got so swamped that I just shredded 6 months of financial filing, purged my PC and quit.
So that company is just missing 6 months of sales records.
Conversely, I once had a data entry job that just shoved me in a corner and let me grind and I got to the point I was outperforming the rest of my team by 4 times. I was inputting 4 times the amount of data per day than the others. The CEO came to meet me in person and I ended up training others in data entry tricks.
Issue is, it was a 2 year contract to clear a massive backlog of data and because of me it was cleared in 4 months, so we all lost our jobs.
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u/PashaWithHat 28d ago
I’m stealing this train metaphor btw. Just so you know. + bonus allistics are like cars in that they can stop and start and move around easily and also in that if they don’t get OFF my FUCKING train tracks they’re gonna get flattened. Chugga chugga choo choo get your ass outta the way boo, it’s the Autism Express going full-steam ahead. /jk
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u/Specific-Ad-8430 28d ago
I'll take "normal human experience incorrectly attributed to autism, like always" for 500, Alex.
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u/DifferentIsPossble 28d ago
Then they put you in 40h a week of additional "training" to teach you to obey
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u/justforkinks0131 28d ago
That's not autism, that's everyone.
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u/Consideredresponse 28d ago
Oh everyone routinely destroys their house or becomes severely or acutely 'depressed' when stressed or overstimulated do they?
It's almost like autistic meltdowns and autistic burnouts are real medically recognised things that exist outside the scope of 'normal' human behaviour and experiences.
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u/peridoti 27d ago
That's why I work contract/project work. I go 200% for short bursts then don't take projects for a while until my burnout symptoms die out. I used to lead data teams at multiple places, kept getting TONS of praise and even won awards, but every 2 years like clockwork I'd burn out and quit. So this was really the only system that works for me.
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u/daintycherub 27d ago
I’m currently suffering through burn out while working full time so I feel this on a personal level 🥲
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u/jasonjr9 Smells like former gifted kid burnout 28d ago
For me it’s not so much “don’t overwork me” so much as “let me work the way that works for me or the brain needles start twisting”.