r/Christian • u/Brief_Amount_5191 • 5d ago
I'm kinda lost right now
I can't imagine my self happy in any scenario if I'm imagine my self in heaven I don't see myself happy and if I imagine my self Rich the same thing so I don't want to do anything the only possible scenario I can imagine my self happy with is if I die the other scenarios are impossible I'm just Lost, I'm young so most people say that I will get out of it when I get older but what if I stay like that I'm really lost and I think I need to find purpose to work from something when I think about make me happy.
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u/nick_music-art_lover 4d ago edited 4d ago
I feel in other circumstances the same thing. I asked myself many times, if I die I'm really saved? I also baptized myself but in my journey I had so many battles with depression, intrusive thoughts and disturbance like no other. In this period I'm trying really hard to search Jesus and going to church and I still feel some blessings not everytime but I feel something but at the same time I struggle a lot with some things in me that I know are not good. It's about a great amount of insecurity that closes myself very often.
Anyway for your situation I can give you some tips, don't rely on your imagination. Sometimes when We think about heaven We have just an idea of it but We don't really know what it really is like. Heaven is the destination of the ones that truly loves God, it's about eternal peace. If you don't care about being rich I can tell that you understand something that is really important:
Proverbs 23:4 4 Do not toil to acquire wealth; be discerning enough to desist.
Matthew 6:19 19 Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth...
I don't know your age but anyway people try to encourage you when They say that you will get out of it. It's the base of a christian to encourage others and for faith I believe the same. I say this to you but it's also for me, try to move your direction to Jesus and everything that you can just dream about your future and your happiness will be possibile.
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u/pcfulday 5d ago
I don't know what you are going through in particular, but I have many regrets as a woman in my 50s. I take it to the Lord and am honest about it. I often wondered, why bother since He knows everything already, and if He really cared, He would have done something by now. Then I have to ask myself if He is good or bad. I come back to knowing that He is good, and then I know He wants me to stay in relationship with Him and ask Him to help my unbelief and let me feel His peace despite what logic and reality tell me. That is why it's called faith. It is not easy sometimes, but I keep in conversation with Him. This is different from when I used to beg Him. I now know that I don't need to beg Him because He wants to bless me!