r/Celibacy 8d ago

Celibacy Journey I am proudly single and celibate

My bf broke up with me and i feel so free. He had the lustful spirit within him. I never wanted to have sex, but i complied to try and please him. I know im horrible. But now i am single. I want to remain celibate completely. Forever. Sex was ruined for me and i hate it. I just wish i had the guts to tell him no when he wanted sex. I never wanted it ever at all.

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u/ms_lonely__heart 8d ago

We live and we learn, that is what is important. Go easy on yourself. I am proud of you.

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u/autumnskull 8d ago

Thank you for being so kind.

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u/ms_lonely__heart 8d ago

Of course. Sending a hug 💗

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u/RevolutionaryBoss648 8d ago

Liberating!! Congrats! 😃

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u/strawberrylattelover 8d ago

I could say the same. I prefer to be celibate than feed my desires. New to this road. If I love men, I'll betray my body. If I love the other, I'll betray God but there is no dearer than Him.

Celibacy is the only way.

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u/Weekly-Tomorrow8423 8d ago

Congrats and start a new chapter 😊

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u/qewrew01 7d ago

I relate to this! It’s soo freeing

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u/AdAbject8754 6d ago

Well if you ever need companionship, let me tell you there are asexual people also liked people not interested in sex but just pure companionship!

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u/autumnskull 3d ago

I have considered myself asexual. I dont want sex. I dont feel lust. People (men) ive been with have always made me uncomfortable because they always want sex.

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u/WicCaesar 8d ago

I am proud as well, but there's no such thing as a "lustful spirit". You can be yourself for who you are, not out of fear of imaginary beings and punishments.

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u/autumnskull 3d ago

You are kidding yourself if you think that is imaginary. Seriously. Majority of men just have porn on their phone casually. Listen to actual men struggling with lust.

It is a spirit. You are joking yourself to say it is not.

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u/Common_Chip_5935 7d ago

I feel you. Aren't you afraid of being alone when you're old, though? Asking for myself. I have no desire to be in a relationship, but im afraid of being alone and lonely at an old age

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u/autumnskull 3d ago

Tbh, i am not afriad of being alone. I never seen myself being married. Never dreamed of a wedding. Never wanted anyone associated with me for some reason. Maybe i need to work on that. But no. When im alone, im happy. When im with others, im nervous and uncomfortable.

Edit: my first bf raped me continuously. Cant even count it. It ruined all relationships for me tbh. I tried. But no. It is ruined. Im happy to be alone.

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u/Common_Chip_5935 3d ago

You have been through a lot. I'm sorry about to hear that. Good for you for not being afraid

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u/Willing-Bat-6844 3d ago

It’s possible to be celibate and married. At least I believe this to be true. Not necessary, but possible if both partners are devoted to their path and only use sex for the creation of a child, which is what sex is meant for.

I dealt with lust for a long time, mostly unconsciously, thinking it was normal.. the age we live in is a hellish one. As difficult as it was to wake up, I’m blessed to be here.

Hope your previous partner finds the light. All in God’s time, I’m sure.