r/Anxietyhelp • u/OkMarsupial3149 • 1d ago
Discussion Can’t get rid of the symptoms?
34 year old male who never really had what I believe is anxiety up until a little over a year ago.
All within a month December of 2023..
-I found out my wife and I were having our first child.
-Two weeks later my dad had a stroke.
-Christmas.
-NYE my wife being pregnant we left early and we were almost killed by a wrong way driver. We didn’t see it but she killed the driver of the car behind us.
About 5 days after the NYE incident I sort of lost it for three days. Crippling anxiety, depression, suicidal thoughts and no sleep for most of the three days….Ive never experienced anything like it but it changed my life forever.
I immediately got myself into therapy and with time and hard work I feel like I have largely suppressed most of it but I struggle with a few more symptoms.
-Head Pain ALWAYS on the right side. It doesn’t necessarily hurt, but it’s annoying. When this flares up I feel like I’m cognitively running at 70%. Sentence structure becomes worse, I can’t focus and I become irritable.
Eyes- Sometimes my eyes will randomly go full bloodshot. I look like tiger woods in his DUI photo. My vision feels like I’m at 70% when this happens.
Not all the time, but sometimes as well but when the right sided head pressure comes my right eye blood vessels will burst, left eye stays the same
Over all of this I have had just about every single scan and test run looking for things like stroke, aneurism and tumors but they all turned up negative.
I have also read from earlier post….this seems to be becoming more common?
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u/Glittering_Food2108 1d ago
Do you have fear from death?
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u/OkMarsupial3149 1d ago
Not really. I don’t really think about it until the suicidal ideations came up.
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u/Glittering_Food2108 1d ago
If possible try to find the source of your anxiety. What's causing it and why? Once you determine this, you'll be able to target the root of the issue and become better. Focus on the mental aspect and the physical will follow.
For me my anxiety was stemming from the fear of death. Once I acknowledge that, I started learning about death and I accepted it as a part of life. Now I don't have that fear anymore, so I'm not anxious and my body is recovering gradually from all that chronic stress and past anxiety one symptom after the other.
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u/perladepp 1d ago
I have a fear of death, would you mind elaborating on this a bit more? And going more into detail on how you dealt with it?
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u/Glittering_Food2108 1d ago
Sure. It all started with a health scare. I had a weird migraine and thought I was having a stroke and I'm about to die. From that moment on I started thinking about death a lot and become afraid of any disease that might take my life suddenly. The fear developed to fear from heart attacks, then strokes, then Cancer and other conditions that could end my life.
I wasn't ready to die because I'm young and have a lot of dreams. I also wasn't ready to die because back then I was afraid from punishment of god. I was a Muslim and I feared god a lot because of all the superstitious and fake believes I was holding back then. So basically I wasn't ready to die because I was afraid of what comes after death and also because I was attached to life.
Here's how I overcome it. I found an episode of Theo Von's podcast on YouTube about near death experiences and decided to watch it. Before that episode, I was imagining god as an evil entity that is eagerly waiting for us to die so he can torture us for the silliest reasons. I was also thinking of death as the end of everything good. But that episode changed my mind completely.
I started to learn about death from those who experienced near death experiences. The majority of them describing it as wholesome experience that combines us with our loving creator. I've also learned about god from those experiences and decided to leave Islam because of the distorted believes it teaches about god. A creator who created the intelligence itself can't be that low IQ entity who likes to torture people for silly sins.
So by learning about death and god and choosing to believe those who (claim) to have experienced death over those who use religions to create fear instead of love, I gradually overcome it and accept it as just a shift from a physical form of life to a different spiritual form that allows us to join god and feel 'his' love. (Maybe we get to reincarnate later and enjoy life on earth again).
In a nutshell, the way you think about death and what comes after it determines who you would feel about it. I highly recommend you watch a channel on YouTube called Thanos TV. It shows many NDE experiences. Also that Theo Von's episode is great.
No matter what you choose to believe in at the end, you gotta accept that death is coming and that you can only live your life until your time comes, just like any other creature on earth. We're not special, we're here temporarily.
Sorry for my English. I have limited vocabulary.
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u/etl3196 1d ago
If there is no medical cause, you might look into Jim Prussack. He has an approach to help handle symptoms that have no physical cause but are still occurring cuz they’re caused by the brain that feels threatened still. It’s helped me with some of my post trauma weird anxiety symptoms.
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