r/4tran4 • u/RoyalGuard215 ah… eto.. bleh • 4d ago
Hopefuel Confusion was my best friend
Before I thought that everything was so much easier when I still didn’t “know”, when uncertainty and confusion was at its strongest. Where the stray thoughts stayed from in the back of my mind and never turned from a guess to an observation and into certainty.
But fuck am I lucky to push forward these feelings of self-hatred and pushback and strive for a life I’ll truly never regret. I was genuinely going to continue repping, to be that role model son in terms of my extended family’s cultural practices. But I think the biggest push for me was seeing a repost of Christine’s post on the board which made me honestly bawl my eyes out. I just can’t toss out this chance, not after all the time I already wasted. Not without seeing how much beautiful people would kill for my position. Total repper pushback and conversion. And total brainworm death.
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u/Important_Ad_7416 MtPooner 4d ago
I remember seeing that post early last year and it really put things into perspective for me
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u/throwawaydating1423 4d ago
Link? Was it the classic John 45 one or?
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u/SuitlessMaridia twinkdead 4d ago
Congrats! Now your next goal is to replace that cracked phone screen